I am sending a little message out there to show some activity. The recent weeks I have been visited by a best friend, I know him since almost half of my life by now. It was some good time to play some games and to talk about things.
Now that he left back to his hometown and the summer is about to go away, I am preparing for new, hopefully well managed, working sessions for clients and for myself as well.
However, issues will not go away that easily and I have mentioned those issues in the previous journal entry. As I am more or less suffering from anxiety, it is not easy for me to deal with things that occur. It is something I normally do not openly talk about, and indeed I understand the meaning of anxiety very well. It kinda blocks the flow of creativity. As my dearest best friend, she is by far one of the most important parts of my life, will probably toss a cactus at me (little inside joke) I am doing the best I can to not dwell on things that aren't the case. Anxiety is really nothing to take too easy. Interesting is that my two aforementioned best friends and other people I know better have anxiety issues as well. And what is even more interesting is that anxiety seems to be more spread amongst people than one would expect.
No wonder as to why so many people take drugs or alcohol, or otherwise try to escape reality. Videogames, movies, following mindless trends, art - these are not bad things of course and not everyone who follows these things is anxious. My point is that if people are aware of their thoughts they can try to observe them. I do put a lot of it into my personal stories and characters.
Sometimes it is very difficult to write and develop the story of some characters as their situation is too scary; as these might be too close at some of my current situations.
And because I know that I do not function well without my dearest best friend, she and I are like sharing the same brain, I try to be there for her as much as she is there for me.
The point of this is - do not escape reality too much, because it can ruin the life you are in (I have worked too much and almost burned myself out, working a lot was my way to escape reality). And most important, I guess I should get this out there, I do not know how many individuals read my posts, however what I am saying now might be very important for you:
True love is the love amongst best friends. If you haven't found one you definitely will. Make sure that you support each other instead of escaping this reality all alone.
Make art and stories together, and enjoy art and stories from others together. And if anxiety strikes because something happens that worries you - be there for your best friend. This will last forever, you do not want to waste the time. As for anxiety itself - try to be aware of it and do not try to hold it back. It will otherwise lurk in the dark, somewhere. If you know where it is coming from you may find a way to deal with it way easier. And maybe, some day, you will know this dark half of yours that well that you can seal it into your art or/and stories.
Typing this somehow made it easier to get my mind free from what swirls within and maybe it is helping someone out there too. Take care, everyone.
And by the way, more Photoshop Brushes will show up soon in .
This is the most recent brush set so far, you may grab it to try it out if you're interested.
Have a good day!
Visit the galleries of my best friend and our team-gallery, and if you like the Fantasy-Club and painting Fantasy-Art, read our rules and join us.
Dracorigian-Fantasia MrsGraves xxfantasy-clubxx.deviantart.co… (xxFANTASY-CLUBxx)
And finally: The GREAT-ART-COLLECTION Group of my best friend